I am the new owner of an iPad mini. I spent all evening syncing it to my iPhone. It’s basically the same thing with a bigger screen that makes for better viewing during bedside web surfing.
I don’t want to come off like I don’t appreciate the gift from my adoring fiance, because I do. I can especially see how fantastically entertaining it will be while traveling, and it’s a lightweight thing to stuff into my purse and carry around with me everywhere I go.
But really? It is an iPhone but bigger and it doesn’t make calls. And it certainly doesn’t replace my laptop, since it’s not easy to type on and I can’t keep a spreadsheet on there (and I can’t live without my spreadsheets!).
So one of the things I am trying to do is minimize my life. In the past year, I have done this across the board (simplifying things such as: my finances, my career, my morning get-ready-for-work routine, my wardrobe, my skincare routine, my possessions, my friendships, and more). But one thing I still spend too much time doing is sitting in front of a device (be it my computer, my iPhone, or now, my iPad) and watch someone else live THEIR life. I think my generation as a whole is guilty of being sucked down the time-warping internet rabbit hole more often than we’d like. Sometimes I feel like it’s just me, that there’s something wrong with me, or that I am an unmotivated lazy loser for getting so wrapped up in THE INTERNET. But the fact that I was able to have a full ninety minute conversation about this last Saturday night with my girlfriends made me realize that I am not alone.
And then today I discovered this post about a digital detox and was extremely excited to read that this is actually a common phenomenon.
I have to keep working to find that delicate balance between staying informed and in-touch and also allowing myself to disconnect and be at peace with quiet.
feeling like i need to figure out how to hold my attention on 1 thing for more than 5 minutes
reading pictures of you by caroline leavitt – it makes me want to put on my pajamas and get in bed to curl up and read at 7pm every night
listening to horrifically angry rap songs, somehow they calm me down and pump me up
eating chocolate, lots of chocolate
wishing that i had more energy during the day
enjoying cuddles with my kitten and quiet nights at home with my fiance
drinking hot chocolate, need i say more?
learning a lot about recruiting and how to be a good employee
thinking about how i still want to lose weight and i still can’t completely motivate myself to eat right and how i shouldn’t want to lose weight because one of the things i want to stop focusing on is weight but i just can’t get it off my mind
loving the fact that i just planned a trip to florida for a long weekend with one of my best friends
Some are comforted by the presence of others, by the buzz and energy of social interactions and sharing.
I am someone who prefers to turn inside. I draw energy from rest, quiet, and peaceful soothing activities.
For years I tried to deny this quieter part of myself. I tried to squash the introvert, and forced myself to go out and see people. I called myself an extrovert, I proclaimed that I loved to “go out”. I spent much time under roofs that were not my own, and I ended up exhausted.
My oasis is my living room. Sweatpants and fuzzy blanket hideouts. Flickering candles of vanilla and pumpkin. A stack of magazines, a pile of books, and a glass of wine. Creamy dark chocolate squares waiting to be bitten into. My cat and my husband nearby, ready to cuddle when called. A hot home-cooked meal, not necessarily healthy, and settling down for a marathon of one of our favorite shows. Late-night stumbling through the darkness, holding hands, tumbling down into freshly washed sheets. These simple pleasures nourish me, the most decadent fruits for my soul.